When I stop to think about how this week has been, I don’t quite know where to begin. I awoke Thursday morning to several text messages asking if I had been at Borderline, our local country bar, the night before. Confused, I sent quick responses assuring that I was home and safe. I typed “Borderline” into Google and the news of the shooting quickly flooded my screen. It was so strange to see the parking lot, entrance, and neon sign that I knew so well illuminated by police lights. This could have easily happened on one of the many nights I spent at this local haunt.
As an elementary school teacher, I needed to maintain positivity and routine for my students on Thursday, but every adult on campus shared knowing, somber looks and discussed the tragedy in hushed tones away from student ears. I was thankful for the distraction provided by my fifth graders, but was eager to get home to process with loved ones. About 30 minutes before the end of our school day, my students noted plumes of smoke in the distance, gray and growing. I assured them that it looked closer than it was, and that we were just fine. By the time I left campus an hour later, word of the fire spread. As my roommates and I caught up on updates regarding the Borderline shooting, we started to receive news regarding fire evacuations. My boyfriend lives in Westlake, and by about 9 p.m. the evacuation of Agoura Hills sent him home to pack his own belongings. He returned to my home in Thousand Oaks, because I was sure that the fire would not crawl this far north. We went to bed that night saying, “I’m ready for this day to end and to start over tomorrow.”
We awoke around 1:45 a.m. to a cell phone buzzing. When we saw a friend’s name on the screen, we ignored it, saying we’d catch him tomorrow. Within a minute, the phone buzzed again showing the same name. My boyfriend answered his phone only to hear “Hey…umm…. Where are you?” Those words, in light of the shooting the night before, immediately put me on edge. Our friend quickly explained that most of Thousand Oaks was evacuating, and that my area in particular had flames threatening nearby. I walked downstairs to look outside and when I opened my front door, I saw my mom approaching the porch. When I didn’t answer my phone, she knew she needed to come and wake us herself. I then noted several missed calls from my parents, landlord, and friends, and quickly discovered that this evacuation had been going on for over an hour. I jumped into gear, waking my two roommates and shoving what I deemed to be my more important belongings into a duffel bag. I loaded my sleeping bags, duffel, a box of documents, and my laptop into the car and didn’t look back.
I had tunnel vision as I followed our caravan of four cars through several pockets of flames in my neighborhood.
On two occasions we passed large hills of flames that came right down to the street. I was so focused on not losing the cars in front of and behind me that I didn’t really notice the state of everything around me until I was at a stoplight. I looked around and saw fire trucks down the street, cop cars heading in my direction, and directly to my right, a firefighter in full gear driving a civilian car. Suddenly I realized how real this was, and I couldn’t believe that it was happening in my town. A sleepless night followed as the fire continued to grow and we moved through two locations further south.
I remained surprisingly calm throughout this evacuation, and did not begin to register my fear and relief until later that weekend. In moments of restful silence, I would find myself recalling that experience and breaking into tears. I felt fear, relief, and sadness as I digested all that my community had been through in a mere 48 hours.
Although I feel beyond grateful that none of my friends were hurt in the Borderline shooting, the understanding that this can truly happen anywhere shakes me to my core. And while I feel blessed that my family, friends and home are safe after the fire, that doesn’t mean I feel comfortable or satisfied. Our town is operating in a state of limbo, and most of us are deeply uncertain of how comfortable to get in our homes for fear of re-evacuation. I am still stunned that this town and its neighboring communities were faced with so much in so little time, but I am comforted by the outpouring of support that has already spread throughout our community.
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